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โ Hi, how is going today?
I'm not a person who is alone by any means. I have many friends who care deeply for my wellbeing, I have friends who inspire me to become a better artist and hone my skills, I have friends that are the sweetest people.
But I have no family I feel comfortable with. My father and step mother act as though they care about me, when all they do is berate me behind my back, and in my father's case, deny that I'm a trans person because he wants grand children knowing him.
I can't talk to them. I'm 23 years old now and I'm realising that the people who were supposed to support me and be there for me, never were. I feel as though now, I'm truly alone. Living under the same roof as them, under a name that I grow to hate every single day when I know who and what I want to be, but am unable to because they'll freak out at me if I try to make that progress for myself.
I'm a deeply depressed person, and because I've been brought up by people who neglected me and my mental health, I've grown unable to open up to anyone. Even the people who genuinely want to listen and help, I push them away because I'm afraid that my problems will be a burden to them. That I will be a burden to them. It hurts, and I know it's a problem, but I can't bring myself to change it. I know it'll help to talk about everything, but I'm just too afraid.
I know that there are better days ahead, that I can truly make things better for myself as soon as I move out. But each day gets longer and longer. And I feel as though it'll never come.
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#dark space #calm #ambient #meditation music #deep sleep #relaxation #healing
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๐ผ | Listen on Spotify | Meditation environment:
"My life is just one constant battle between wanting to be alone, but not wanting to be lonely."
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๐ซ in a dark environment, perfect for moments of introspection, deep thought or when you need an escape into a world of shadows and echoes.
I miss my little brother so much
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I listen to this to fr escape reality to get away
More User Perspectives
For all thoes in pain come to jesus, i was here for so long so depressed wanting to die, searching for what is real and then i found it through Jesus, not religion, but a man who lived a perfect life of righteousness and died so that we may be forgiven and be with him in eternity, please just give it a chance trust me its so peaceful. And if you choose not to well ill pray for you then that one day you will find the peace and love that i have found. Im not trying to be condescending im just trying to reach the people who are like me, broken, tired, resentful, and lost
@TheDerp187Wait i am trying to find a song that is sad this might be it
@Legolamboghini1I am not ok
@21snowbumThis is almost my 4th year of idk trying everything and failing again and again and again
And on 14th of june my final battle is happening a series of exams from 14th of june till 5th of may and If I donโt average a 90.0 to 100 I will stop working hard
I will just live my life I will wake up live and sleep because I will be goal-less
Today is 10th of june 2026 12:00 am
Right by the comments section I see a video that says itโs 3 AM go to sleep.that was made yesterday
@courtneygriffith763am i alone
@GTAartur100im so tired not physically but mentally im tired of everything โค๏ธโ๐ฉนโค๏ธโ๐ฉน
@shelbyho9545I want to walk outside my house for a day and just stay out I want to watch from a bridge as the lake geese drift by as the sun cones up as the sun goes down as the stars come out and as it all fades
@Jes-1212slashing my wrist to this
@zandermilelrYeah... lot on my mind rn. Sometimes it's nice to take a break
@JosieSwertfeger0:25- AM and listenting to thiss at 13years
@Just-a-normallSADNESS PIANO ๐น
@sarrcehinejellyfishcookieI am a stage in my life where it feels like all of flaws and insecurities are starting to come alive. I feel behind and like a failure but I'm trying. God I'm trying to getback on my feet and make better decisions, I took time for granted and did not take enough initiative in the beginning. I miss my mom and dad, I miss the way they played with me when I would try to ask them to. I miss them so much
@MonoCharon4653You're right !!!
When I was in 10th class in school I didn't care much and days passed then months now years and now I realized that the time was totally different and I wasted instead of enjoying and feeling it and making it so much memorable and now I'm now on roof of other's home, not mine, I don't have home yet I live here but anyways I feels this home is like it's mine. Now it's 10 pm crossed and just same like showing in this video here's also lightning in the sky I don't know how exact same can even happen but some memories can't be forgotten and some memories are very special to remember. I can't explain but I can say that you'll feel someday what I want to tell you. Thanks for reading this not a comment but a life memories and I expect that you will get what you need and have a peaceful life just don't forget this kind of videos because you have a very good selection in videos. These videos make people express their stories.
If you'll like this comment it will give me a notification and I will remember that like you people are alive.
Man. When did my life become so fucked up. 2 job losses in a year. Hundreds of job applications, so much rejection. Can't afford much of anything, can't afford to move out or move on. Dating is hard for me, I'm too embarrassed to even try right now. I've lost weight but I know I'll probably put it back on. I'm a mess mentally, everyone thinks I'm so strong, even my therapist but am I really? It just seems like the path forward is dark and unclear. I'm bed rotting tonight and can't fall asleep. I don't even feel like an adult anymore. I'm a mess. I know it'll get better at some point but for now it's the war I've known for years now. Sorry, just nice to vent here instead of at a someone's phone at night. I just want to believe in a better future for me. Pray for me, I need all the aid and strength I can get right now.
@SJDaRosaA lot has happened.
I'm trying so hard to stay positive and be strong, but my mental health is spiraling down, and it feels like I'm a ghost in my own town. I smile outside, but inside I frown. It feels like giving up is the only way for me, even though I ask myself everyday if there's something out there that I just don't see. Sometimes I feel like this world is not where I'm supposed to be.
im wide awake trying to sleep but all i can think about is wanting someone to love and vent to
@RepublicofArkoviamy only words...thank you
@cornelstirbu5062my gf makes jokes ab me so many times and all i do is ignore them because she likes to say so but whereas i joke ab smth, she just stops talking to me and now i feel guilty
@bhahahaaI m depressed this helps me ๐
@carlossanmiguel5553To answer the channel name, idk anymore
@Lebonbon45-12Today was my last day of school ๐๐ข im sad but happy bc i wount go to school but i will be loney
@yaraacevedomiranda3903The 2nd song is more scary then the first.
@valeriegruner6441I hate but i want love, I laugh when I want to cry tears near form when I cry but when I laugh I want to know who I am and what purpose I serve. I don't know who I am anymore I'm lonely when I'm crowded by people. I'm lost, teird, alone and unaware of who I am do I keep living or end it so I can stop suffering?
@MicahCampbell-u9jhonestly feel like my life is just worth nothing
@Mich-ek6msRemember: you are not alone.
@cityoflossantosI keep getting told Iโm a failed content creator. And that I suck at everything. I feel like everybody wants me to die.
@TruLvnIโve never had many friends, Iโve been alone all my life, and I understand why, Iโm annoying, but itโs fine. I donโt need other people, me and my dog will do just fine
@Hypixelskyblock6767Thank u for making the time last...โคbye yall love you๐ have a good life becuse mine is........nvm
@Niahslay77O:(
@Spider_mannn-Spidertaking a break
@myaanaaaLuke 18:1
"Always Pray and Never Give Up."
Well.. I'm pretty exhausted
@ddukhaI try to be strong, but when I'm by myself at night laying down in my bed by myself in my apartment:
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